When I Grow Up
What do I want to be when I grow up?
It's a question I've been asking myself a LOT lately. Especially as I worked through the process of deciding to leave the job I had for thirteen years and return home to look after my household and try to make a go of things selling some handcrafted items.
I'll admit it's a bit disturbing to be a number a little north of forty and still feel like you don't know what you want to be when you grow up. It can be frustrating, exciting, discouraging, and fascinating all at once to try to figure out the answer to that question.
Today, it came roaring back as I read an email from BlogHer with the Editor's Picks of "5 Women We Want to Be When We Grow Up". They made some excellent choices. Women who are funny, intelligent, insightful. All good qualities for any female to have as she grows up.
But a funny thing happened as I read through the selections. I realized... I want to be ME when I grow up!!
Me. In all my stumbling, bumbling, well-read, well-meaning, lost and found, slightly OCD and less than organized, crafty, silly, stressed out, less than perfect glory!
Sure, I may not have some glowing, highly recognized or well paying career. I have some things about myself that need some work. Don't we all? But what I do have is pretty fantastic. I have a wonderful husband. I have two great kids. I have an adorable grandson. I have a few good friends. I have two sisters who I know will have my back through thick or thin. I have a creative mind. I have a sense of humor that makes some people laugh and some shake their heads. I have plants to tend, chickens to feed, a house to clean, and books to read. And that all sounds pretty good to me.
So, go ahead and ask me what I want to be when I grow up. I just want to be ME!
It's a question I've been asking myself a LOT lately. Especially as I worked through the process of deciding to leave the job I had for thirteen years and return home to look after my household and try to make a go of things selling some handcrafted items.
I'll admit it's a bit disturbing to be a number a little north of forty and still feel like you don't know what you want to be when you grow up. It can be frustrating, exciting, discouraging, and fascinating all at once to try to figure out the answer to that question.
Today, it came roaring back as I read an email from BlogHer with the Editor's Picks of "5 Women We Want to Be When We Grow Up". They made some excellent choices. Women who are funny, intelligent, insightful. All good qualities for any female to have as she grows up.
But a funny thing happened as I read through the selections. I realized... I want to be ME when I grow up!!
Me. In all my stumbling, bumbling, well-read, well-meaning, lost and found, slightly OCD and less than organized, crafty, silly, stressed out, less than perfect glory!
Sure, I may not have some glowing, highly recognized or well paying career. I have some things about myself that need some work. Don't we all? But what I do have is pretty fantastic. I have a wonderful husband. I have two great kids. I have an adorable grandson. I have a few good friends. I have two sisters who I know will have my back through thick or thin. I have a creative mind. I have a sense of humor that makes some people laugh and some shake their heads. I have plants to tend, chickens to feed, a house to clean, and books to read. And that all sounds pretty good to me.
So, go ahead and ask me what I want to be when I grow up. I just want to be ME!
I love your response. While I appreciate Sabrina for her many fine qualities and I appreciated the kick in the pants about prioritization -- I am very happy just being me. :-)
ReplyDeleteI agree - Sabrina is pretty awesome. And so are you! Thanks for stopping by and commenting! : )
DeleteThis is nice to read, as I sit here just shy of 40 and wondering if I ought to make yet another career change. A good reminder that the right time is the right time to make changes in your life, at whatever age!
ReplyDeleteTo quote one of my favorite "30 Rock" episodes - It's never too late for now! : ) Thanks so much for reading and commenting Susanna!
DeleteGlad you are happy with your decision to change the path of your life. I need to really consider what I am doing with mine and what I want to be when I "grow up".
ReplyDeleteThank you. It didn't come easily. A lot of pondering, worrying, nail biting, and even more praying. But so far it seems to have been a very good decision. I pray you find your path along the next season of your life also.
DeleteThis is awesome. I've often said I haven't decided what I wanted to be when I grow up, and by the way I'm 55 years old! I decided to make that choice about ME. I'm a lot of things, wife, mother, sister, daughter, business partner (with The Hubby), artist, cook, etc...you know the spiel, but I like me! You make the choice that is right for YOU! I don't think we ever really grow up but I believe we grow and learn and evolve to who WE want to be. Good luck, you'll have a great time!
ReplyDeleteThanks Jill. Maybe we never really finish growing up?
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